So it started of with me having a crush on her. But then things go according to planned and we never started anything mainly due to my fault as I was too shy. Then this christmas I decided to invite her for my party on christmas. Pleaded with her to beg her mum to let her come but she couldn't. Then she send me a message saying how badly she wanted to come but she couldn't. Then i told the party would not be the same without her but she encouraged me to continue having fun(will think of you while having fun)(:. Then we started talking abt our feelings for X(for me) & Y(for her). And she was so cute to tel me she was imperfect and all. I mean I guess a lot of people would never be that humble to say that. Then she told me I had a lot of guts to tell her "something". And she told me "something" and she was really really happy to get it f her chest. And then I realised that she has been there all along and i never realised it. She is like one of my bestfriends. I am really sad you cant come for my party but dont worry i will have fun while thinking of you. I love you my friend!<3